Currently Listening The Matrix: Music From The Motion Picture see related

Without Risk?

Currently Listening Batman & Robin: Music From And Inspired By The 'Batman & Robin' Motion Picture By Bone Thugs-N-Harmony see related

Valentine's Day

I hate Valentine's Day. Who in vented this crappy holiday anyway? Probably some love-crazed loser with nothing better to do.

I mean it's like some freakin' heart-shaped nightmare. Candy hears here, ballon hearts there, pink and red hearts...Oh...I HATE hearts!

And this Cupid guy flying around like some giant gnat in a loin cloth, takin' pot-shots at people with his little love arrows! What if people don't wanna be in love? How does this creep think he is, making people all ga-ga against their will?

And the music!!! Do you hear that?!? I wanna puke when I hear that crap! Enough with the music already, puking over here, hello!
GAWD THIS HOLIDAY MAKES ME SICK!!!

Well have a happy February 14th, but not a happy Valentine's Day....
I HATE VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

(I got that from an old America Greetings card. Not only is this true, but it's how I feel about this stupid holiday!)

Currently Reading The Forensic Files of Batman By Doug Moench see related

Strong, Independent Woman

Coming this January I would be single for seven years. Yeah that's right, Seven years...
Siete años...
Sieben Jahre...
Zeven jaar...
7 年...
OF FREEDOM!!!

Seven years of not having to worry about how my hair looks for some guy. Seven years of not having to ask if it was okay to go hang out with the girls on a Saturday night.
Seven years of not having to fight over some stupid thing or the same stupid thing.
Yeah that's right seven years of pure single freedom.

Grant it, I have had my heartbreak, my let downs, my break-downs. But that has only made me stronger and has helped me become the wonderful woman that I am. The friends I have made over the years I will always adore and the mistakes I have made I will always remember. (So as not to make them again!)

I do not regret my mistakes over the past seven years, I take them and learn from them and become stronger from them.
I do not regret missing out on dating.
I do not regret missing out on getting married to the one I prayed that I would be married to, no, I'm much better off without him.
I do not regret going to bed with no sweetie to tell me good night.

I do not need someone to tell me how beautiful I am...I know this.
I do not need someone to let me know when I am wrong...as rare as it is...I know this.
I do not need someone to walk with me down a dark street, or any street for that matter, I am my own woman and can take care of myself.
I do not need someone to pick up the check after the meal; I make my own money and can pay for it myself.
I do not need someone to drive me around town, I have my own car.
I do not need the approval of ANYONE; I was raised with the knowledge of right and wrong.

I will not make an excuse for myself, I am who I am.
I will not apologize for my actions, I am who I am.
I will not give in to the weak mindedness of the majority, I am who I am.
I will not back down from the fight, I am who I am.
I will not put up with you, if you cannot handle me, I am who I am.
I will not tolerate stupid, close-mined people, I am who I am.

Just deal with it!

I am a strong and independent woman and I don't care if I am single for another seven years! I have made my decision and I am following my dream. I have my own passions and my own pursuits. I will not give in or give away all that I have worked for because some man cannot or will not understand who I am, how I work and why I do the things I do. Their ignorance and stupidity will not be my cage. I am free and I love every second of it!!!

My Tattoo

My Apology

            OH MY GOD!!! People, please stop! I’m sorry to have upset you all, but I want you to know…Nothing happened...Nothing is wrong…I am okay!!!

            I was not feeling too happy and chipper that day. And I just wanted to vent. Yeah I know that my communication skills are lacking, but I don't care. I know how to communicate my feelings; it's just sometimes I prefer to write them down. I'm sorry and I strongly apologize if I had offended, worried, and/or scared anyone with this posting. Please just know that I prefer to write down my feelings rather than talking it out.

            For a few reasons...one; I don't usually get the response I want or need. Two; a lot of people don't understand how I work and why I do things like this. And three; it's just how I was raised. I know that last one is a bad one to say and that I can grow out of this habit, but I choose not to. Please understand that it's tough for me to express myself, this is something I was never really taught as a child. I love you all and I know that I am loved because of the reaction I have gotten from this. And please know that I didn't write it to "check and see" if my friends still cared about me. I know this!

            Again, I am sorry for this posting. I just write to get things off my chest. And if need be...I do talk it out, but I prefer to talk to my mom or dad. They know me the best and I value their opinion the most. And yes I have talked to my mother and father and I’m okay. One of the main reasons for this posting was because I hadn’t been getting enough rest. I have only had one day off per work week for the last month or so. Also, my back was hurting me in such a way that if I slept in any other position other than on my back my arms would fall asleep. And I move in my sleep so I couldn’t control it so I would wake up with intense pain shooting through my arms.

            I am so sorry and continue to deeply apologize. This is not what I intended to happen when I wrote these things. I just needed to vent. Next time I vent I’ll make sure to let everyone know since there is no such thing as freedom of speech.

Again, I am sorry.